Dance Class - Week 2

So.... week 2 was today but this was the first day I had my youngest with me. That was stressful! She no longer will let me hold her the entire time and she grabs and whines for the toys there. I brought books but she didn't want those. I gave her things from my purse but she just threw them on the floor. I finally gave her the toy she wanted after I wiped it off (but not good enough). She was all over the chairs and those are so dirty - so GERMY! 10 more weeks of this is going to be very difficult!!! I wish she would just let me hold her. Maybe next time I will bring the LeapPad and see if watching Calliou will help! It's only 30 minutes... if that doesn't work I will have to think of something else.

Then the teacher gave both girls a sucker which was a fight on the way home. When the baby was younger and didn't care I let  the oldest eat it in the car but for several reasons I don't want her to do that anymore. One she bites suckers now so I don't like that in the car and I can't let her do it and not the baby so it will have to wait until we get home.

The youngest was upset in the car because I took the sucker away and because the oldest got a new dance bag. I gave the youngest a little diaper bag to go through but she was frustrated with it when it didn't open right away and what did she do? Stuck her fingers in her mouth!!!! My immediate thoughts were "did I wipe her hands off?" Did I do it well enough? Please have her not pick up any germs!! We just got over a cold with her. So now the waiting begins.... 2-3 days to see if they get sick to have 4-5 days to relax until it happens again. I don't know how other mothers do this. How do they just gather together several times a week and not worry? It is so stressful!

So now I'm trying to de-germ when we get home. My oldest is stuffing everything in her new bag (including her nasty tennis shoes), she is screaming for her bear that we brought to dance class for her routine. I don't want her to have the bear because it's germy and would rather it just sit in her back to de-germ until next week. The more I try to convince her otherwise, the more she wants it so I just wipe the bear off to somewhat calm my nerves and give her the bear. Luckily she went back to her favorite toys almost immediately. 

So now I'm dealing with the suckers... both girls want them and they want them now! I wipe off their hands (again), wipe off the sticks of the suckers (because they touched them with their germy hands). I give them the suckers. I wash my hands for probably the 4th time since we've been home and try to pick up the mess we made on the way in. The girls were hungry and crabby so I give them snacks and more snacks, the baby pours her juice box all over the floor (I knew I shouldn't have tried those again yet). I am so stressed that I shove several cookies into my mouth - yeah that's real good for my immune system. Especially since a mother sneezed right towards me and the baby  in the waiting room - she did cover with her hands so hopefully we avoided it if it was anything.

I just want it to be Spring. I know there are still germs but there are less germs. This is an exceptionally bad year for flu and my main concern is any stomach virus. My anxiety is always less in the other non-flu season times of the year. I knew it would be hard to go out during the cold/flu season but the truth is the girls will be in school one day and I can't avoid it then so I should try a little now right? Plus I do want to have fun with them but how much fun is it if I'm always so uptight? I'm glad that part settles down for me in the warmer months.